Being a mommy part 1

Noelle has reflux.

This comes with mass amounts of spit up.

Yep she’s on medicine but that helps make her belly feel better, not with spit up.

I’ve had spit up in my hair, all over my clothes, on my clothes and on my pillow in the middle of the night.

It has also caused kind of paranoia in me as well. I’m scared she’ll choke.

She can’t be moved right after eating. She must be kept still for 20 minutes.

Never lay her flat on her back. Her bassinet is inclined and we’ve got her crib mattress inclined.

At night I put her to bed and I’m afraid she’ll spit up in her sleep. That’s scary.

We go through a few outfits a day for her. Today, it’s been 3 so far.

We both will smell like baby puke throughout the day. How fun.

I fear that she spits up everything she eats and that she won’t gain enough weight.

Some days are better than others. Some feeds are better than others. It all depends.

On what? I don’t know but I can’t wait til this passes.

I’m nervous about daycare and reflux and me not being there with her.  I feel anxious leaving her for a few hours anywhere but I already know I’ll be more than anxious once she’s away from me for hours. 

Being a mommy means worry. 


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My memories are something that I treasure. Some memories I want to capture in writing because I want to be able to share them from generation to generation, others are just something I want to keep in my heart. Whether it's something that just happened or something that happened years ago, I want to have it to keep.
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2 Responses to Being a mommy part 1

  1. Dana Murphy says:

    Oh, Rachel, being a mommy does mean worry. Luckily, it means a bunch of other things, too.

    Maddie and Katie both had reflux. This post brought back many memories – of the outfit changes and the smell and the fear and the incline. It will pass with age. Until then, you’re doing all the right things. She will be okay, and they do grow out of it. Hang in there.

    I love how you wrote this kind of listy. It worked really well for this piece.

  2. erinjohnson7 says:

    I went through the same thing! I know how you feel! It’s so scary but this too shall pass.

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